How much compromising?

[superplatonic]

In order to get some human warmth and touch, how much do we have to compromise! I'm not se---lly shy, but that's not what I want. For me less is more.
But in order to acchieve some intimacy, I often find out the other one getting urge for too much. I mean I won't compromise my chastity, I have clear limits [these are the 'no's if you don't want to read them just jump to the next chapter: any penetration into my body, or me penetrating into his; my ejaculation; using mouth on genitalia]
But I feel like while I'm not crossing any major lines, I'm still getting more ---- from them than just the warmth or friendship / love that I'm searching for and feeling for them. And it makes me do some compromising. About kissing I'm not sure, but it too gets often 'too wild'. And these are the 'grey zone' that I'd rather really do without, but keep on getting AGAIN IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ THEM, SKIP THE REST: [mouthing nipples; stronger cuddles; him ejaculating]. What I do love though is the taste of semen (that's the only more 'gross' intrest I've left), so I could take it into my hand and bring to mouth.]

We all meet in the red circle
-Buddha