Hope to find my swan; I know your out there! ;)
Hope to find my swan; I know your out there! Honestly I found out what I am not too long ago, after so long feeling alone and feeling obligated to stick around harmful people in order not to feel unloved and alone. I just thought I was the only "freak" out there so I kept my celibacy (and asexuality, no sex drive or s----l desire) secret. I didnt know the term until not too long ago and still I am searching for the complete right terms. Now that I did some research, I dont feel so alone. I am however hurt inside and only wish to seek someone to talk to because I need to sort out my true feelings. I truly wish I had found this out earlier so I could have filtered out the harmful people only seeking s----l pleasures or having "needs". I actually thought of becoming a nun (since at the time I thought that was the only people that didn't have sex) but I am into love and alte
ative spiritualty (magick and towards darkness, not necessarily evil) so that was not working for me. All I ever wanted was someone to love me, be romantic, sweet, honest and loyal as can be yet be extremely happy with me with a sexless life. I really hope to find someone that I can freely talk to without being seen as a "freak of nature". I am a life-long celibate and feel more confident about it now.
I prefer to talk to those with no sex drive or little sex drive because I want someone that will not cheat on me or leave me because the s----l urge got to them as many do. Because all I want is to be loved, I don't care what being you are if you love me and want me and I do too then its great! I never been with any gender other than guys but I am open to love as long as its monogamous.
I also want someone to be ok with my goth and pagan belief and lifestyle. You don't need to believe in what I do but as long as you respect it (and not make fun of it or try to change me in anyway) I am happy.
Age also does not matter to me but I do prefer those older than I. I love great conversations.